First day back ...

Today was the first day back at college after summer break. Was so excited to be heading back, so excited. Summer been so long, and working been so frustrating ... but learnt a lot so I guess it's not been wasted time.

There are many reasons I was excited to get back. Firstly the people - really good to be in contact with them again, their a great bunch. Then there's that my brain will be challenged again ... was beginning to wonder if it still worked! But I think the main thing is that I'm one step closer to finishing. Not in a bad way, like I'm wishing away the time ... but like I'm beginning the next stage of the journey of learning that God's allowing me to undertake at the moment.

This time last year I was so nervous and fearful. The task seemed so daunting and I felt like I knew nothing. In most respects I still know nothing, but I'm no longer as fearful. God brought me through me first year, and though it was hard, it was totally enjoyable. There were times when I wanted to throw books across the room cause I disagreed so strongly (the worship one comes to mind easily) and there were others when I finally found that there were words to express what I'd been feeling inside. The task is still huge, it will still be a challenge ... but boy, am I excited at engaging in it rather than fearing it. I've changed in the last year, I think for the better for the most part, and I wonder what will happen this year? Who will I be this time next year? How will I have grown and been shaped? These questions are filled with so much potential that I can't help but be excited about what lies ahead. And so with that in mind I think I'll take myself out of the library (aren't I a good student - first day back and already in the library!), and homeward ... contemplating some more and asking God to keep the excitment I feel today alive to progress well through the challenges I'll face this year as I seek to be and to live out who He's made me and what He's called me to.

Soul Surivior ... part 2

Ok, so I know I always say that I'll finish what I start ... but I don't. Started the blog about Soul Survivor and never finished it ... oops.



However, will make more of an effort. Soul Surivor God spoke to me loads about love, about being good enough and not needing to please Him or live up to some kind of perfect standard He had - I wasn't a disappointment, and gave me an extra peace and I guess filling for the leadership stuff He's called me to at the moment in this student pastor role at EM. Took me a wee while to internalise all that, but thats basicaly it in a few words.