This little light of mine, I'm gonna let it shine!!!

"Let your good deeds shine out for all to see, so that everyone will praise your heavenly Father."

Jesus

What a challenge!

Speaking honestly, some days it feels like I shine out Jesus from every pore ... most days though it feels like I fail miserably.

That's been the theme of this weeks camp ... encouraging the young people to connect with God and then let their light shine for all to see.

Am sitting pondering that after speaking on it last night, and as I get ready to go back home again. As someone 'in ministry' (or hoping to be soon!) you're almost always expected to be close to God and shining. But sometimes that comes from a place of real emptiness I have to confess. Maybe it's just me, but sometimes it can feel more like an act than a genuine shining.

Was re-challenged myself as I talked last night about Jesus not only knowing your past, but knowing your future and the potential you have. Potential to make a difference in the world. Potential to enact change and tranformation. Potential to be different and be who God created you to be.

Alongside all this am reading Les Misérables in anticipation of seeing it in London next week (graduation present from my fiancé and celebration of our one year anniversary - how cool is that!). Though I love the music from it could only vaguely remember the actual story line, so reading it is really helpful. Can't get out my mind though the priest at the beginning. The way he lived his life shined light into the lives of others. He was generous, humble, kind, devoted, lived with integrity and spoke with honesty. All of this had an effect on the criminal Valjean as well as countless others. Not too far in yet, but can already see the ripple effect into the lives of others.

Let your light shine before others so they may see your good works and praise your Father in heaven.

We did a really cool night walk the other night in the pitch black, in what felt like the middle of nowhere. It ended up with us getting to this big clearing where one of the leaders light a candle and shared some thoughts on that verse in Matthew. Then there was an opportunity to respond by lighting a candle and placing it alongside, adding to the light, and asking God to help you to shine in the darkness. It was one of those holy moments ... totally silent ... people engaging with God ... no-one wanting to leave after. It was so simple and yet so profound as I placed my candle alongside the others. In the stillness of that moment I was asking God for boldness to proclaim Him, to shine, to bring light into darkness. That may be my 'calling' but I want it to come not from a sense of duty but from an overflow of who I am because of who I am through Christ. Because the question is what do people see when they look at me? Am I creating the kind of ripple effect that priest in Les Mis was? Do my 'good deeds' flow from a place of selfishness, where though it seems kind really I'm after the praise and recognition, or does it flow from a place of intimacy with my heavenly Father? I know which one I want it to be ... the challenge is for that to be the truth in my life ...

Gorge walking it through the tough times...

As usual it has been far too long since I have blogged!

This week I've been up in Nethybridge for Adventure Plus - a great action-packed activities Christian camp for teenagers run by the amazing team at Abernethy. My job has been to help speak in the evenings and its been a real priviledge to share the gospel with folks in a variety of ways.

However, as I'm not speaking every day I managed to get out on an activitity ... the gorge walk. I was here a couple of years ago and did it then too. I remember at the time, back before we went off, thinking about the gorge walking I'd done with school trips ... a nice little river, some trees to clamber over, but nothing too drastic. That's what I was imagining for this too.

How wrong could I have been! Heading down to the boat shed I'm issued with a helmet, wetsuit, wetsuit protector and a bouyancy aid. This was gonna be no walk in the park, easy adventure. When we got to the site and got in the water it was freezing! The water was gushing and climbing up rocks and through little bends and jumping off sections took so much effort and energy I honestly thought I wasn't gonna make it. But at the end ... wow ... what an amazing feeling ... I'd survived which really felt like a miracle!

Back to this year ... it was the best activity for me to go on 'cause it was only half a day, but this time I was prepared. This time I knew what to expect. This time I knew it would be tough so I stepped a little stronger and pulled myself up a little harder and jumped a little higher. This time I didn't just survive ... I had fun and enjoyed the adventure.

It struck me as we finished though and as we were preparing to speak on being healed and the cross and forgiveness and keeping going and all the other Christian stuff, that this is a lot like how it feels in life at times.

There are times when you've been coasting along or life seems as though its nice and settled, and then suddenly its a battle just to survive and keep on your feet with your head above the water. In those times it doesn't always feel like we'll make it, like we'll get through.

And yet somehow, some way, we do.

And when difficulties arise again, well we're a little more prepared for them than we were the last time ... and if we survived the last time perhaps its easier to believe we'll survive this time too.

I love (word used deliberately) the fact that as a Christian I know I am never facing things by myself but rather everything life throws at me is faced with God and in God's presence. He's promised never to leave me nor forsake me, no matter how tough life gets, and He's the One who gets me through. He's given me all I need and more. And each time life is tough, somehow its easier to face it ... because if God got me through last time and He's promised never to leave me, then He'll get me through this time too.

And even when it's tough, it's still the adventure of a lifetime. As the folks at Abernethy say "Live the dream!"